Damn. Damn, Damn, Damn. I’ve just worked out I’m not going to meet my goal number of blogs this month, unless I blog twice in one day and both days at the weekend. Not going to happen. Especially as I’m working the second job BOTH weekend days! Sigh. Oh well, I’m still writing regularly and quite a lot so I’m happy.
I know I wrote the other day about my excitement about a new book that’s just come out by Sophie Kinsella. I think I did anyway. I really want it to come out in paperback before my holiday in September so I can take it and read it then. Yesterday I found out that Jane Green has a new book coming out soon too. I love Jane Green. She’s in my top three favourite authors (Sophie Kinsella and Marian Keyes being the other two). In fact I might go out on a limb and say she is my favourite author. I read one of her books once that changed my life. Not in a major way, but it made me realise something which led to something else. So she does awesome chick lit, but I actually gained from it too.
I would love it if one day someone got excited (other than family and myself) that I was releasing a new book. Imagine knowing someone was looking forward to reading something you wrote. That’s my dream.
But it’s a long way away. Short term I’ve made a decision about work that is going to screw up my writing time I have during the day. But as I don’t seem to be doing too much at the moment it’s not too big a problem. I just hope I’ll find time to keep blogging.
Haha, if someone had have told me six months ago I’d be a regular blogger, I would have laughed at them. I knew pretty much nothing about blogs etc and would never have believed I’d start doing it too, let alone enjoy it. And an avid reader of other people’s. Funny how things happen. Having this blog definitely inspires me to write, whether it be on here or actual creative writing.
I wish something would inspire me to do some of my next assignment for my course. I’m not really inspiring myself. Maybe I need to choose another topic, maybe this one just isn’t interesting me enough and I could get on better if I choose something that will interest me more. I need to do some brainstorming. Sigh.
I am having quite a productive day today (in the writing sense). Work is ridiculously quiet. I did most of my work for the day in the 1st half hour, then on my lunch break someone finished the rest of it. Bad. But really good because I have done lots of writing. Well some writing anyway.
A few months ago I got the idea for a short story and make notes for it (the blueberry yogurt story I’ve talked about before). I decided today would be the day to fill in the gaps. I’m about 3/4 of the way through and I think it’s OK. Actually I’m very happy with it. When finished it will be the 1st short story I’ve written that I’m happy with. In fact only the 2nd I’ve ever written as an adult. The other was for a competition which I never heard back from. Looking back I can see why. It had a rubbish ending.
I’m happy with this one though as there’s a little twist in it which makes it quite good. I think anyway.
Also this morning I asked for some words or idea to create a story around. The words I was given were: ”A white dog”, ”Cheeseburger”, ”The number ‘3’ ”, ”Running” and ”half”. From that I created a children’s story in my head, which I now have in note form. Maybe by Christmas it will be a story. I do have a slight problem with it. The children do something they are not allowed to do, but don’t really get punished for it, promoting the idea that it’s ok to something you shouldn’t. I do not want my story to give children the impression they can get away with being naughty. I’ll have to put a bit more weight behind them getting told they can’t do it. The other tiny problem is that they get told they can’t tell anyone something, I don’t think it’s a good thing to tell children they aren’t allowed to tell their parents. Although it’s a policman who tells them, so maybe it’s ok? As I say it probably won’t turn into a story for months, so I don’t need to worry. Plus, there will probably never be any children that read it. Positive aren’t I!
The other day at work I decided to start writing down bits of conversations people had as they walked past my desk. I thought it would be pretty easy, but it’s harder than I thought. I don’t know if it’s because there’s a lot of other noises going on so hard to concentrate on one thing, or maybe because people are facing away from me half the time, but it is quite hard to do. I think that’s probably more of an exercise for somewhere where the people around are sat sill. I’ll persist anyway.
I’m really impressed that for the 1st time in ages, I’ve actually got something to blog about. Maybe this is a change and I’ll start doing lots more writing. Fingers crossed please!
OK. June was terrible. I have no idea what happened there, but it was terrible. I don’t want to lay the blame elsewhere, but I do blame the day job. Two reasons. One: I hate it and am finding it very hard to get motivated to do anything because of this hate! Two: procedures have changed and my role has so I have less time to dedicate to writing.
That said, I think if I have some set goals I’ll try a lot harder to keep to them than last month when I had none. Fingers crossed anyway! So here we go:
Write 8,000 words ( I feel like that is a realistic amount. I managed 6,000 easily a couple of months ago, and that was in only 15 days. I don’t want to make it too high as I’d like to spend some time editing and rewriting what I write – with a high goal I don’t seem to do that).
Finish reading Brown Girls by John Wesley Ireland. (I’m really enjoying this so it should be really easy to finish.)
Finish reading ‘How to write a novel’. (I really shouldn’t do this, as I’m sure I’ll cover all this in my course, and I’m nowhere near that section of it yet, but I can’t help it; I really want to!)
Spend 10 hours on the writing course. (That’s only 2 hours a week, that is nothing. If I can’t do that, I have some serious problems!)
Review Brown Girls on here once I’ve read it.
Review Mercy (I should have done that in May/June – oops!)
Here’s a nice little dilemma for me. At the moment should I spend my free time solely focused on one of these? Or should I spend half and half on two? Or spread myself very thinly and try and do all three? I think if I try and do all three I’m not going to be able to do any well, so do I focus on one or two? And which ones?
I have a target of loosing weight in 2 weeks which I am not very close to doing yet, so I really need to focus on exercising (plus there’s a little matter of a 10km run I’m doing in three months I need to train for).
So that’s exercise then. Is that enough, or should I do another? Which one? Do I spend my time looking for a new job, which may be very hard and time consuming considering the economic climate. Or do I continue with the job, do as much writing (and writing course) as possible, then look for another job when the climate picks up/when I’ve finished my course? I seem to remember having this dilemma before. I thought I had sorted it with just staying in this job, but I’ve realised I’m not happy here. I guess really that’s my answer! Job and exercise. Then writing. Well, maybe some writing here and there….
Without a set goal for this month I’m not doing too well with writing, or the course, or blogging. I guess I also put this down to how I’m feeling about the job and feeling a bit down; if the writer’s mood affects their writing, who’s going to want to read some slightly moody writing?
I had this discussion with someone recently. He said what he writes totally depends on how he feels that day. If he’s happy he’ll write something nice, light and happy; whereas if he’s feeling sad, the writing will be dark and moody. He therefore, finds it hard to write something on two consecutive days. I think that’s bad. Ideally I would love to become a full time writer (I do know the chances are very slim, but it’s nice to have a dream!) so only being able to write certain things on certain days would be crippling. I don’t want to be like that. I think I just need to get out of this little rut I’m in then I’ll be fine.
Oh, just remembered – reading. With everything else I have on, when can I find time to read???
I’ve been really good today. For a while, I’m embarrassed to say, I’ve been wondering what, were and how a semi colon should be used. I imagine it’s something I learnt at school, but just can’t remember. As a writer I should know, so I googled ‘Use of Semi Colon’ and found this great link. So now I know. Only another 1,000 grammar and punctuation things I need to learn. It’s a start though.
I’ve also done something bad. Well, good, but also bad. Only bad because I know I’m going to regret it. I was chatting with a girl from work about how you can download books online, and how that would be a great idea for at work as we’re sat at computers with nothing to do between phone calls and/or visitors coming in (I work on a reception/switchboard). So, today I looked into it, and found something even better. Free books. Yes, that’s right, free books. Wooop. From here. So, I’ve started a new book. Good, more reading. Bad, I’ll be reading instead of writing. At least it’s all going towards being a writer anyway.
I wonder when you start calling yourself a writer? Is it when you’ve written a book? An article? Or when you’ve had it published? Or should people consider themselves writers when they write ANYTHING? If that’s the case, I should call myself a writer now, cause I write quite a lot (I’ll get round to finding out how many words I wrote last month and the rest of my May round up tomorrow). I don’t feel like one though.
Maybe I will when I get this silly second assignment done. I know I’m only calling it silly because it’s dragging out. I WILL get it done over the next two days (HOLIDAY days). I’m writing my list now of what I’m going to do – I think I’ll need to get up normal working time to get everything done. damn.
I know I’ve got a hundred more things to say, but without a list, I can’t remember them.