I really really want to get on with writing, but don’t really know what to write. I’ve just edited a bit of the blueberry yogurt story. I think I need longer away from it though. At the moment I think it’s really good, so need to step back so I can see it for what it is not what it is in my head.
I started this story yesterday about a girl going on holiday with her gran, mum and great auntie Pearle. I could carry on with this, but I don’t really feel it today.
That really means I SHOULD carry on with it. I need to start making myself write even when I don’t feel like it. Although I feel like writing today, so does it matter what I write?
I have been wondering a lot the last 24 hours (I know, so long, ha ha!) about whether I’m doing the right thing just writing random little bits then leaving them. Should I be persisting with things to get to the end, or is it ok doing this because surely ANY writing is better than NO writing? I lied, I’ve actually been thinking about this for a lot longer, I believe I’ve blogged about this exact thing before. I think I’m going to go with it’s fine to do. If I have an idea, getting it down is good, maybe it will lead to something later. I once sat a wrote a little scene about a tube journey. A few days later I realised it would go in ‘Holiday’ really well. Yes, I’m doing the right thing.
In fact, thinking about it now, I can maybe see the airport scene going into Holiday. Changed quite a bit, but it could fit. He he, go me!
Here’s a nice little dilemma for me. At the moment should I spend my free time solely focused on one of these? Or should I spend half and half on two? Or spread myself very thinly and try and do all three? I think if I try and do all three I’m not going to be able to do any well, so do I focus on one or two? And which ones?
I have a target of loosing weight in 2 weeks which I am not very close to doing yet, so I really need to focus on exercising (plus there’s a little matter of a 10km run I’m doing in three months I need to train for).
So that’s exercise then. Is that enough, or should I do another? Which one? Do I spend my time looking for a new job, which may be very hard and time consuming considering the economic climate. Or do I continue with the job, do as much writing (and writing course) as possible, then look for another job when the climate picks up/when I’ve finished my course? I seem to remember having this dilemma before. I thought I had sorted it with just staying in this job, but I’ve realised I’m not happy here. I guess really that’s my answer! Job and exercise. Then writing. Well, maybe some writing here and there….
Without a set goal for this month I’m not doing too well with writing, or the course, or blogging. I guess I also put this down to how I’m feeling about the job and feeling a bit down; if the writer’s mood affects their writing, who’s going to want to read some slightly moody writing?
I had this discussion with someone recently. He said what he writes totally depends on how he feels that day. If he’s happy he’ll write something nice, light and happy; whereas if he’s feeling sad, the writing will be dark and moody. He therefore, finds it hard to write something on two consecutive days. I think that’s bad. Ideally I would love to become a full time writer (I do know the chances are very slim, but it’s nice to have a dream!) so only being able to write certain things on certain days would be crippling. I don’t want to be like that. I think I just need to get out of this little rut I’m in then I’ll be fine.
Oh, just remembered – reading. With everything else I have on, when can I find time to read???