Something has to change. As seems to be the pattern at the moment, I did no writing over the weekend. The thing that’s changed, and made me realise that something has to change, is that I didn’t even think about writing.
Usually I think I should do some, but then get distracted by this or that or the other. This weekend, it didn’t even cross my mind. Not even when I saw Kait’s Check-In email (although I read that stupidly early in the morning, so maybe it’s not surprising).
I just don’t know how I’ve managed to get myself into this situation. It’s like I just don’t have any motivation to even think about writing. And I’m supposed to be finishing ‘Holiday’ by the end of October, and deciding if I’m doing NaNo (probably) and getting an idea for that. What’s wrong with me?
It’s possible it’s because there’s a lot of other stuff going on at the moment, nothing mega really, but enough to keep my mind occupied. Maybe I’m just making excuses. But if I am – why am I having to?
I don’t know if I’m enjoying writing ‘Holiday’ as much as I have done before, but then I’m really writing filler bits at the moment (last week I finished a filler scene). Maybe I need to jump to something exciting to get me back into it and get me motivated. I’ve only written the first chapter in note form, so I could jump on that one straight away.
I know I’ve got lots to fill in – the start, a bit after a funeral, this, the other, and I think I feel like I should go back and fill them before I move on towards the end – I probably think this because I don’t really know what’s going to happen in the last quarter of the novel. That worries me, but I think I should just go with it. I was worried about the scene I just finished, but that ended up going really well.
I’ve got a semi idea for a NaNo novel. Not really as much as an idea, but maybe a spark of an idea. I need to think it through, because it’s really only one scene and that’s it, but I like the character, she could be fun to play with. But, I want to spend my time writing ‘Holiday’ not planning a novel that I may or may not write. At least this is one good thing, at lease I WANT to spend my time on ‘Holiday,’ now, if I could just make the move towards DOING!
I’ve just finished my lunch break… but maybe I’ll spend another 10 minutes on it, and do some writing!